Painful other Half

He hasn't done a thing, the places an absolute pigs sty, I no hes not feeling well at the moment but he could at-least try. I can't talk to him at the moment because I no it will all come out wrong like it did last night. I thought about letting him read this but I really don't think its agood idea either, I keep thinking hang on till the new meds kick in and things will be better, but I get so tired and hurt. I no I have to take more me time, do things for me put me first some times instead of always putting him first. Something I've discovered recently is that when your the other half of someone with a mental illness you become isolated, their world becomes yours. At the moment he's not working, so I go to work, do the shopping, the house work, the washing, pay the bill, the cooking except on the very rear occurrence when he does bake beans or eggs on toast. When you get very little in return, you wonder why sometimes.